When I first found out that JWs don't have the truth I was thrown into the throws of an existential crisis that was February 2001 I was 46 years old, it took a couple of more months before I started to realize I was going to die some day, it took a couple more years 2004 before I realized the bible was full of shit, and I dropped some what deeper in the crisis.
It felt like a complete melt down, let my prosperous business go down the tubes, I couldn't focus to do my taxes, balance my check book, and I maxed out all my credit cards, the government started garnishing my wages after I sold my business and it took me to 2010 to climb out of debt with out declaring bankruptcy.
During this time of emotional unhingment I tried all kinds of psychedelics to try and get some type of break thru. I think I had serious brain shrinkage(due to cramming my head with WT corporation propaganda). Eventually the fog started to lift and my mental faculties returned and I started to take more charge of my life.
So if you're new to finding out about the lies of the WT corporation and depending to on age, how much you have been indoctrinated with their bull shit, etc...be patient become proactive in getting this bull shit out of your neural networks and do lot of internet searches and find out for your self what meaning "you" can give to your life face the universal reality that you're gonna die and live your life to the full in freedom.